Tuesday, November 28, 2006

*blinking my crusty eyelids*

It's only been the second day of work (full day) and i'm feeling the sad reality of what it's going to be like when i'm working for real, for the next 40 years of my existence. Oh, i'm working for a week, normal office hours, because i'm standing in for my colleague who's away.

I'm tired, and i've got to ensure that i rest early to get my good solid hours of sleep. One of the things that piss me off greatly is when i don't get enough sleep before something important the next day. Especially if the activity i have the next day isn't exactly something i do for leisure.

I now understand what it means to say "think happy thoughts, happy thoughts!". I've been doing that since last week to prepare myself mentally for this week. Squelching ANY bad thoughts and emotions, and replacing them blindly with every good thought i can muster to allow myself to be swallowed up by positivity. No space for feelings of dread and boredom!

But i thank God that i've been kept really busy these past two days. It helps make time feel as if its ticking on by real quick. Strangely, i enjoy rushing something (a document, presentation, assignment, etc) when the minutes seem like seconds before closing time.

I've been planning my weeks ahead, jotting down my schedule for december till about march. It's not complete but it'll fill up in time. I had promised myself that i would have a week for myself... But that has yet to come to past. Wish i had some time for solitude. To feel the expanse of space for my mind to expand and my being to just fully de-tense. But it's just been so busy.

So yeah, here's just my little wee update about nothing much, very simply written.

Anyway, my Miss Brunei is back for two weeks and it was so nice to be with her over last weekend. Ah, the late night girly talks with her and M was engaging and the time spent with them helped me understand some things better. We don't spend much time outside cell group time like this, and I wish we could have more talks like these, without worrying about the day after and other responsibilities and concerns.

Got to go, or i'll be digging my own grave. Good night.

8 comments:

HippiHo said...

Working as??

joline said...

hippiho:

a doctor's little helper. :-)

Eliss said...

at? thomson medical centre? was it you who told me this? i wish i have ur job man. as u can see i m doing nth now...cos my pts nv turn up lor. alamak...

joline said...

Eliss:

No, i'm not working at thomson.

sigh, i know how it feels to have nothing to do. Bring a book to read or do some organization around the clinic to ensure all then logistics are well stocked and placed?

Eliss said...

the thing is i m not the resident therapist so i dun dare to mess up their arrangement, as for reading i dun dare to do this it is too obvious eating snake wat.so troublesome hor. if i am at anderson i dun dare to come here at all. sure get scolding one. only this week at st nic can relax abit

joline said...

Eliss:

OH I SEEeee.... okay, okay. i thought u were working on your own. i wonder how your clinic arrangement looks like.

Eliss said...

nope i m not working alone. i have mentor at both clinics.

joline said...

Eliss:

As much as that can be limiting, i'm sure they will at times be a source of comfort that should anything go very wrong, you won't be alone to face it and make the major decisions.