Yesterday i was telling God with some level of anguish in my heart, "God, i've been so busy with my own errands to run, i've been so distracted this week and i don't like it. I want to worship you in every area of my life, how can i worship you even in my daily living? I want to worship you throughout the week, connect with you. Nothing makes me as happy when you are in my heart. Nothing compares to you. I know my heart longs so much for you, cos it's empty without you."
That evening, R (someone who does NOT message me normally) messaged me to ask if i was going to church. I was like, "huh" OH YEAH, there's Soak and Seek tonight!" Although i had known that it was tonight, i was kinda like not too keen on going and had forgotten until R texted me.
Note: Soak and Seek is a time for the musicians, dancers, etc (the "artsy" people) in church to come together for combined worship and bible study.
My attitude in response to that? Get a load of this: " Huh, I don't want. Feeling lazy... don't want to leave my home."
Than i realized, "Hello? Didn't you just tell God that you wanted to worship him?"
It's so sadly amusing, how when the real thing comes along, my human weakness clouds my heart's desires. I thank God for that realization and i decided that i was going to make that choice to worship God with all my will and strength.
God was obviously saying, "You said you wanted to worship me right? Here you go, are you going to come for this (Soak and Seek)?" It was a little admonishment for me from Father God. I know it was certainly divine... R did not message anyone else to ask and he definitely does not message me normally. Guess i had to be reminded to learn to put my will into action. :-D
Oh, and through what God told R (at the end of the session, we prayed and asked the Lord how we can bless our friend), Father wants me to read the book of James. Wokay! How specific! I like. :-)
Everything that goes in, stays. Or so we think. And then, this is me: Just too much, and just too little.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
I need a break. Some peace and quiet.
Just like what my classmate said, "I need to be alone to recharge." Well, i'm an introvert, that's why. People find this surprising. But it's true. I may be loud, but that's when i'm charged up. Or when i have something to say, a point to make. Otherwise, i'm mostly the laidback individual, listening, speaking my mind when i need/want to. I'm not the life of the party.
Think i've got to go hole myself up at home for at least a week or more. Watch DVDs, think, surf the net, sleep, write, cook, bake. Whatever that satisfies my desire for rest. Need to live in a short term bubble.
I can't decide if i'm happy or lost at the moment.
Just like what my classmate said, "I need to be alone to recharge." Well, i'm an introvert, that's why. People find this surprising. But it's true. I may be loud, but that's when i'm charged up. Or when i have something to say, a point to make. Otherwise, i'm mostly the laidback individual, listening, speaking my mind when i need/want to. I'm not the life of the party.
Think i've got to go hole myself up at home for at least a week or more. Watch DVDs, think, surf the net, sleep, write, cook, bake. Whatever that satisfies my desire for rest. Need to live in a short term bubble.
I can't decide if i'm happy or lost at the moment.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
inducing.... hyperventilation...
Look at its adorable puppeh faaaace! (proportions: big forehead and little mouf) Auuugghh! And its teeny tiny squishy body inna hotdawg bun! Aahhhhh! i can almost smell its musky soft doggy scent from here.
This is just incredulously funny. It's like, "Ok! I'm just testing if jonathan used wax on the stairs!" *done sliding* "Yeah people, floor check done! Smooooooth as a baby's bum!"
Source: www.cuteoverload.com
This is just incredulously funny. It's like, "Ok! I'm just testing if jonathan used wax on the stairs!" *done sliding* "Yeah people, floor check done! Smooooooth as a baby's bum!"
Source: www.cuteoverload.com
Monday, November 10, 2008
Of all the photos, the nicest ones were taken in the toilet when we were trying to remove our make up. HAHA.
Anyway, here's saying HI! after the wedding. :-)
As Jie meis, we had a good excuse to go pay some good money to get our faces and hair fixed.... So we went to a salon and i have never worn so much make up in my life!
Personally, i think i essentially look exactly the same, with or without make-up. Unlike some people who, after slathering on the stuff, look entirely different and unrecognizable.
What made me really grin (and think to myself that "it was all worth it") was when my dad said to me: "I think your hair was really nice... and i thought the make-up was done very well. Made you look really different, it enhanced your face. Very pretty." AWWWWwwwwwwww.... Thanks Dad! :-)
Anyway, here's saying HI! after the wedding. :-)
As Jie meis, we had a good excuse to go pay some good money to get our faces and hair fixed.... So we went to a salon and i have never worn so much make up in my life!
Personally, i think i essentially look exactly the same, with or without make-up. Unlike some people who, after slathering on the stuff, look entirely different and unrecognizable.
What made me really grin (and think to myself that "it was all worth it") was when my dad said to me: "I think your hair was really nice... and i thought the make-up was done very well. Made you look really different, it enhanced your face. Very pretty." AWWWWwwwwwwww.... Thanks Dad! :-)
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Ai yai, the end is nearrr...
Things to do when school is over (which is actually dependent on whether i can finish all my assignments before the 12th. Highly unlikely though.):
1. Meet up with the girls
(i've stuck post-it notes with the names of people on my mental noticeboard, but they've a way of dropping off. So, if i've said i'm going to meet up with you but have not, please come and pinch me, you have my permission...)
2. Do/plan something nice for gem.
3. Go on eating trips.
4. Last minute training for 10km.
5. Go to the beach/park.
6. Catch-up-potluck with the you-know-whos. ;-)
7. Go look for a good pore cleaning mask.
8. Read the counselling (soft skills) book and other articles.
9. Do video editing for the married woman.
10. Go on phototrips with miss D, and miss V and miss C.
***
I can smell december. The wind that blows through my window at night tells me so.
(darn, now i sound like Rafiki from the Lion King who can read information out of the dust/leaves that he catches straight out from the air)
***
Senator Barack Obama is the new president of the USA...
I've got mixed feelings about him stepping into the White House...
The world and i am going to wait and see.
1. Meet up with the girls
(i've stuck post-it notes with the names of people on my mental noticeboard, but they've a way of dropping off. So, if i've said i'm going to meet up with you but have not, please come and pinch me, you have my permission...)
2. Do/plan something nice for gem.
3. Go on eating trips.
4. Last minute training for 10km.
5. Go to the beach/park.
6. Catch-up-potluck with the you-know-whos. ;-)
7. Go look for a good pore cleaning mask.
8. Read the counselling (soft skills) book and other articles.
9. Do video editing for the married woman.
10. Go on phototrips with miss D, and miss V and miss C.
***
I can smell december. The wind that blows through my window at night tells me so.
(darn, now i sound like Rafiki from the Lion King who can read information out of the dust/leaves that he catches straight out from the air)
***
Senator Barack Obama is the new president of the USA...
I've got mixed feelings about him stepping into the White House...
The world and i am going to wait and see.
Monday, November 03, 2008
for you, miss zen :-)
happy convo to me (16th October, Thursday, 2008)! (taken by Alvin! Thanks bro...)
I really like the colours of the robe, my faculty's (arts and social sciences) colour. It was a silky rich rose red and a lovely purple, unlike some other colour combinations that i've seen that make graduates look like bookmarks. I sure hope my faculty in NIE has decent robe colours!
I really like the colours of the robe, my faculty's (arts and social sciences) colour. It was a silky rich rose red and a lovely purple, unlike some other colour combinations that i've seen that make graduates look like bookmarks. I sure hope my faculty in NIE has decent robe colours!
I took a "Harry Potter" photo of myself. Hur hur. Yeah, riding-on-a-broomstick thing.
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