Wednesday, January 21, 2009

This is it!

I have had enough of saying "i want to drive", "i bet i can drive", but not really going to make the effort to learn to drive. My biggest issue is: fear of being in an accident, second: time spent.

But in an effort to straighten out my personal time management skills, i am going to learn to multi-task and handle school as well as driving for a start.

I've already divided out my final theory book into sections so that i can read a section on a stipulated day and finish it by a certain time. Passing this final theory thingy is my main hurdle. Once i'm done with that, i will then have to summon up all my courage and go for my first driving lesson... I tell you. I am petrified by the very experiences that i have not even experienced! I am afraid of the instructors (before even meeting them), i am afraid of causing an accident (when i haven't even begun), i am afraid of not being able to do it (when i haven't even tried), i am afraid that i will not pass (when i haven't even shown myself what i can do!).

I am friggin' scared!!!!!

But then. Knowing myself, I just know that there will be a time when i will feel ready to take on my fear. It's like, i know that i am still fearful, but i also know that through the time that i have allowed to pass (despite the chidings and the comparisons i get from other people), my will has become set and my heart has steeled.

And so the time is now.

Being imperfect and prone to becoming discouraged though, I decided to blog this because i want to further convince myself that this is it... And that if i fail, flounder, procratinate, you guys have all the right to poke me and tell me to get my arse moving again till i get my driving license...

BBDC, here joline comes.

7 comments:

Flying Dove said...

who knows u may turn out to be an F1 driver...

Zz said...

go ahead and just do it. dun fear those things, they are just thoughts. ur thoughts are just thoughts, how do u know the bad things u envision will happened? think positively.if u think u can, half the battle is won.yesh,stick on ur plan to pass ur driving...

joline said...

flying dove:

HAHAHHAHAHAA. yeah man, maybe! somehow the thought of thinking of myself as a mad (but safe) driver kinda makes me smile. heh, heh, heh.

Zz:

I agree totally with you... :-) Truly. I must write down your comment somewhere that i can see when i go to BBDC.

zzen said...

imagine urself passing driving with wonderful reaults! go go jo~ we support u!

vanessa said...

yea! just do it! really. the more you think, the more you will just sit on it.

oh by the way, even the best drivers meet accidents, so it's kinda inevitable. haha. BUUUUT, it's still okey. accidents made me smarter! haha.

joline said...

zzen:

hahha, yes, i'm imagining the possibility of that happening... I hope i don't get too rude a shock if lets say i find myself totally baffled with the car mechanisms. hahah.

vanessa:

i guess that;s the reality of it, huh. oh well. yeah, the more i think, the more i sit on it. so... i'm trying to read the final theory book. but the clutch nonsense is driving me a bit nuts. think maybe i should skip that part first. since anyway i'll be doing the auto transmission course. i would love to master the manual one somehow in the future.

happyz said...

u wont la.just be very dilligent and learn as u go on.dun worry abt things tat may not happen at all.remember a thought is only a thought.it is not an action or even reality at all